Penny Baltajhi: I was with one foot in madness, marginally I felt losing it

‘ In the difficult management of the loss of both her mother and her beloved brother Penny Baltajis, on Saturday afternoon, when she met Tasos Jordanidis in the new episode for ERT’s “dads”. “My mom was a woman who went to psychologists all her life, at least as long as I met her. Go to one, get away from the other, fight there and go dancing, exercise. He felt that “I have to do something for myself, I can’t just be a mom or just at work”. So what we’re all trying to do, what they might have said to her, “Do something for yourself, something about yourself” first confessed the well-known performer. “My brother was 23 years old when he died, five years younger than I was. I’ve always been overprotective, I’ve been on the sidelines and I’ve been leaving him aside. Because I saw vulnerability and my brother was a child who, from a very young age, took out an outburst of intense behavior, somehow it came to me to be close to him and not to let him suffer any more tension.” “In particular with the loss of my brother, because with my mom I was very relieved after what she had been experiencing all her life, I honestly say that I was with one foot in madness. So I marginally felt like I was losing it. I was screaming where I was, taking a bath and screaming. I couldn’t believe that this man was lost so unfairly in his sleep.” “I saw him for eight months every night in my sleep. There was a huge denial in me. It was a very healthy defense of myself to accept that she is gone and my subconscious worked very protectively, defensively and sweetly” Penny Baltajis added.